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Another child?

My partner is wanting us to try for another child.

I am not sure I am ready yet.  Or if I really want to.

After giving birth to my lil boy, I said I didn’t want another one due to what I went through.  To be honest I am petrified.  Probably 3 days after coming home from the hospital, he talked about giving our lil boy a sibling.  I was shocked.  I thought we agreed it’s fine if we have just him.  Obviously not.  So I’ve been going through this massive guilt trip.  If we don’t try and give him a sibling, he’ll be an only child and lonely.

Physically, emotionally, mentally, psychologically, I am not ready.  I am scared.  Also I love this lil dude so much, I just wanna spend all the time with him and love him with my everything.

I remember what I was like when I was pregnant.  I had morning sickness for a long time.  I couldn’t stand a lot of smell and couldn’t deal with a lot of flavourful food.  I was constantly tired.  I just wanted to sleep all the time.  Yes.  All.The.Time.

This time round I will have a toddler to look after.  I can’t bear the thought of not being able to play with him as much as I can now.  I can’t bear the thought of being humungous and not able to run around with him.

What should I do?  Am I thinking too much?